Try something new. Vlogging

Most vloggers give the opinion on something they find interesting or something popular in today's society. Well, something I find very interesting is my very length and every changing conversations I hold with my boyfriend. He is very much the opposite of me, he holds very strong and harsh opinions on things and this is just a few mins of our actual half an hour conversation. Which started with a game of "would you rather" questions and ended on a very serious topic domestic abuse. Yeah, I hope you enjoy this video.

Saying Good Bye

Well, well. We did it, guys! June 14th is one of the biggest events of our lives up to date. In just a few weeks we'll be walking on a stage, getting our diplomas, throwing our caps into the air and saying our final goodbyes. The process sounds like it would be easy but it's not. Someone will cry, if not our parents who will be so proud to see the success we have achieved but us the students. It's hard to say goodbye and I'm terrible at it. So I'll say thank you. Thank You to all my fellow classmates. It's been a good run. All the over achievers continue your fabulous work. To all those with the chill attitude, don't let the world stress you. To those who try their hardest always strive to exactly that because the world ain't easy and you'll need to be strong.

In my class, I see smart, creative and diverse people. People who can really do anything if they tried. If no one believes in you, I will.  Have faith guys even though school might be over our lives are just beginning. I know we all have dreams whether it be to own our own businesses or become a CEO of a local company. I believe we can all get there. And always remember there isn't a time limit. 

Do me a favor though don't ever conform or let someone limit your dreams. It's never too late!

Cabbages and Kings

Finding a blog as unique as my own doesn't exactly exist. Trust me  I checked. But there is something very close the blog of an author. I'm a writer, they're a writer and we both have blogs. So looking for another author's blog I found PJ Parrish, New York Times best-selling authors of the Louis Kincaid series. They've been blogging here on blogger since 2005.  With a cute yet totally ripped off (from Lewis Carroll's The Walrus and the Carpenter) and unoriginal name, Cabbages and Kings. They use the blog as a diary to express their thoughts and adventures. Which is basically the same thing I do.

This is their blog if you like to view it. http://pjparrish.blogspot.com/

MY BLOG REVIEW

In my honest opinion,  I find this blog very unappealing due to the blog's background alone. It's like horrible old fashion wallpaper. The other thing I noticed just by scrolling through their feed is they aren't consistent with their posting. They started with a day by day post, first, it starts with day one continues to day three but then just jumps to day fourteen. You think them being best selling authors they would do better. On top of that, they just suddenly stop posting in 2008! No warning, no goodbye.What kind of writer does that?! I'm just utterly disappointed with these authors, so uncourteous. Though they might've been popular in their day but that's not today. 

I promise you as your blogger not drop you like a hot cake like they did. Also not to leave dead space and be inconsistent. My theme is ever changing and you won't ever find that ugly wallpaper as my background. I will never loose my flavor which keeps you interested. Stay cool guys.

Quotes that Speak Volumes

It is absolutely ridiculous how we can be so lost for words and someone else out there can speak exactly how you feel without you uttering a single word to them. Expressing how you feel has been important to human race add or is to breathe.  So much so that we can make a career out of it.  But there is nothing wrong with expressing how you feel.  Just be careful how you say or vocalize it. Tone and mood a lot too. (Trust me from experience). Of course, we want to spill of thoughts and ideas to someone other than ourselves.  Though be mindful saying too much can be overwhelming or annoying. Where the term TMI comes in handy for many. Some of us don't say anything at all because what we have said has been used against us. Or maybe we prefer to speak to very specific people. The thing is the best way to translate our emotions is to put it into words. And if you can't find the words, I promise there is a quote out there saying exactly how you feel.

Redesigning

Wanting your own space is crucial to any teenager, especially teenage girls. And now as a legal adult, I need my own space more than ever. So I have the glorious opportunity to redo, redesign and renovate my room into my very own studio apartment. Something I can comfortably live in and possibly rent when I leave Cayman. After watching several home makeover tv shows (thank you HGTV) I know exactly what I want and exactly how to go about it. This design allows me to maximize space, recycle, have a mixture of modern design and still have a beautiful open concept.

This is my plan for my room.

It took a lot of imagining to come up with this design because the current state of my room is full of unwanted items, with value, that my mother and myself want to sell. It's hard to see something with an open concept when you're standing in cluttered space. Which made drawing out this blueprint tricky but not impossible. Here's a peek into what I want to do to my space.

First, I'm going to rip out the closet in the corner of the room to open up space and then putting the shoe rack in its place. when that's complete I'm going to break up my tile flooring, raise it and add wood flooring with a white wash finish. Then I need to replace all my doors and windows. After that, I need to replace the overhead fans. Last but not least I need to repaint the entire room.

When I'm done with all the major project there's the fun part, redecorating. Which will be another blog for another day and time. Maybe after all this hard work is done.

The home in my heart. London.

London. She is the crown that sits upon the Queens' head. Everywhere else is just a jewel in this crown. But London, she's the beauty of it all. I have to tell you this. When I first heard about London. I always wanted to go. I fell in love with this glorious city long before I set foot there. And when I finally arrived I felt this surge of warmth like I belonged there all along. As I strolled the streets. Ate breakfast in a train station. Breathed in the art, architecture and the glorious history embedded into the brick in every building, I found a place I could call home. Everything about it was better. At first, I was told it would be rainy and dark. That the food would be terrible. Most importantly that the people would be miserable. But London is nothing like that.

The entire time I was there it was a sunny day until sunset at 9 (ya the sun sets at 9 PM). Some of the most friendly people I've ever seen. And the food...Fabulous. everything was good. So good I have a favorite restaurant called NANDO'S. 

I tried to go to all the famous sites and even go to Paddington station. I developed an obsession with this place because of the movie Paddington about a bear from Peru who was found there. Anyway, it was one of the major places I wanted to go and I DID! There was never a dull moment. 

There was a diverse amount of people there and everyone fit in. I could one imagine getting my own home in London.  It is a place I truly wish I could've stayed. On one of the last days there, I was lucky enough to see the queen driving out of her palace. I was so close to the car the driver could've hit me. That experience was interesting. At first, all I saw was her dogs and her petite little head with a hat on. So this is that place I'd call home. I absolutely loved it there and suggest you go visit. (But did it in like 3 years then you can just visit me) :)

Fear of being invisible.

Many and probably everyone doesn't know this about me but I'm scared of being unseen and unheard. I'm scared of not being talented. That I'm just that person people would see in the life but never interact with. I feel like I'm slowly slipping reality. Sunday morning I was with my boyfriend and felt like even though he was sitting in front of me, staring at me. I felt like he was a figment of my imagination and it wasn't real. 

I feel like everything I've done means nothing. Every word ever spoken or written. Every competition. Every prize. All apart of something that doesn't really exist. I'm scared of not being good enough. I'm scared that nothing good will happen or stay. I'm scared people will only see me as a figment of their imagination. 

Because I a scared I try to do my best. I try, to be honest, and kind. I try to be a real friend. But then I don't feel like anyone actually sees me as a friend. Or not a friend that will stay. Even though I know that's not how it is. It's what fear does. 

Because of this fear I have other fears. I fear rejection. I fear acceptance. I fear being loved. I fear being hated. I fear betrayal. I fear adoration. This makes me awfully aware of my existence on this planet. I am one in 7 billion. I'm basically already insignificant. 

But there is a bight side. I don't live by my fears. Cause if I did I wouldn't be who I am today. And I wouldn't be doing the things I'm doing.